I\'m making a manga based on an idea floating through my head.

Although, making it by myself has been an extreme hassle.

I\'ve been recruiting people to help me on deviantart, and if anyone from here wants to help, feel free to send me a message ^^

I can handle the drawing if I must, but I would like to have someone to help with character development and storyboards. (Someone who wants to help draw would be thanked too, but our drawing styles have to match ^^)

Anyone who helps will recieve an equal cut of the money when it is published, and will have their names on the book somewhere ^^

    Well, because I haven't written a blog in a while, I have the time now to write one so why not.

 I ran into a couple of you AZ's at ExpCon. How fun was that? Amazing! This was the second year for the convention and the second year for LolR and I to host something to do with dating. As the con is getting better each year, so is Ai-Zutto's Panel.Even though we wanted to do Speed Dating, we ended up doing a discussion on what everyone is looking for in a guy/girl. So what are you seriously looking for in a person? Yes, I want to know. So comment below. Anyways, the discussion turned out really well, compared to last year. Logan and Church helped bring in the ladies we couldn't. Thanks to their long, flowing hair, XD! Logan is on the site, girls, so check him out! Im going to try to talk Rayne into inviting us back this next con, so for those of you who missed it, look us up next year. Or if you want to help us, let me know. Promise loads of fun.

 Now, as far as the active members on this site goes, what do you want to see on this site? The Forums will be fixed up soon due to the lack of activity.Im going to go back to planning a Ai-Zutto get together.Video of the 3 months will, hopefully, be updated soon. What do you think we need to make it better?

 We have had quite a few couples hook up because of this site.Not going to mention who they are, but it does happen on here. So start talking to people! Even if you're just here to socialize, still talk to people!

Erm, for now, this is all I can think of.

Since this website has a music uploader, I'm thinking of uploading some files of me singing that I have been making by messing around with this cool new recording program. 

.. Yay, school's almost out! Boo, exams. Boo, summer classes.

Okay, that's all I wanted to say.

So here is some good news! An old friend from Oviedo is coming back to town, supposedly for good this time. All this time (8 months) she has been working on Carnival Cruise liners as a "Fun director." I'm stoked that she is coming back because I get to travel my happy little ass down to Miami to pick her up from the port! I can't wait; I haven't been on a road trip in a long time. Hope I don't get mugged!

Wish me luck!

New to the site!

It seems that the world has started to turn around for me. I didn't get fired after the Christmas season and got hired on full time at my job. I have officially made set plans to go up to Ohio for Ohayocon and see one of my long lost friends. I don't really have to much to say today. I've met a few new people here and I'm working on talking to them and getting to know them. I surprisingly knew some people here from my old friend groups. It's Kind of cool and fun catching up with them too!  If anyone ever wants to talk I'm on as much as I can be. If you have AIM or Yahoo, I'm Momothemoogle. Drop me a line sometime!

-Nabi

Catch my DJ show on Tuesday 12/30/2008 on www.radioftw.com I play 3 hours of japanese/anime/video game music for all to enjoy. If you'd like to tune in or make a request just go to www.radioftw.com Hope to see some people there!

Since I'm new to the site, it's only fitting that I consider myself a newbie here. And I'm not particularly comfortable putting up stuff about me day online so I'm a newbie there too. So yeah Only thing here I'm not really newbieish about is the anime/manga world! Been hanging out on the fringe edges all my life apperently, unknowingly, but then jumped head long into it about 9 years ago and I haven't looked back since. No reason to look back right? There haven't been many american made animated shows that could lure one's sense of artistic love or story love back from anime. The only exception that I can really think of is Avatar, but that's so recent that when I first started watching anime I never would have thought to look back for a good american cartoon.

As for wishes. I was at Sams Club today and saw the most perfect laptop for me. The screen was 12.1 inches and it was a touch screen. Me and my Trekie, I just can't help by be lured in by something that cool! It had 3gigs of ram and 250gig hard drive and it's being run by an AMD processor. my personal love fest right there in a lovely little package. I /must/ save for it and then get it! I love stuff like that. <3

Friday, I go to school, boring and uneventful as usual, So Im on my way home in a hurry to get ready for the con but ofcourse fate seems to want to get me home late. The bus passes by stop and I have to be the girl that calls attention to everyone, by screaming out "STOP!" xD How embarrasing, Now Im running back home (in boots)  and in a hurry as usual. I get home, change, get ready...only for my ride to Super con to be missing in action!  A few phone calls later and I get a new ride, with better and closer friends and they come to pick me up and we go on our way!

We get to super con, buy my pass and run around with my 4 other friends exploring the hotel and talking to the cosplayers! I made new friends and had fun and we went home and 3 of us slept on the same bed.

SATURDAY

Woke up went to super con, I met select start personally! I got to play music with them (my dream) and we went out seprate ways. I sold my weekend pass, and we left the con to my friends birthday party! We jammed, played games, and made even more new friends! And My flute was fixed! xD IM SOO HAPPY ABOUT THAT! HURRAY FOR D FLAT!  Went back to my friends home and slept (Uncomfortably and on the edge! LISA YOU BED HOG! xD)

SUNDAY

Woke up TIRED and IN PAIN, but it was expected, I drew a picture for my friends little sister and me and my friend Marlene left my friend Lisa's house to go home. We got food at Wendy's and ate at the park then continued on our way home. She dropped me off and tadah! Here I am xD

Sorry it was sooooo summarized but Im about to collapse from tirednesss. xD

I'll make sure to write better when Im not sooo blah! xD

Goodnight! xD 

I awoke this morning/afternoon, to the sounds of meowing and purring.
A big pair of hazel eyes stared back at me, giving me the 'Feed me or you'll never sleep look.' I Sighed, rubbing his black head and finally got moving after getting a few bites to my necklace and a head rub from him. After giving his majesty some cat food, muttering out some simple song lyrics and washing my face, I wrapped my blanket about me like a skirt and looked into the barren shelf of my kitchen.
"Heh... lookes like instint rice again."

Flipping on the tube, hitting the power on the 360, I returned to my marathon of Outlaw Star. Appeartly when the show was presented on Toonami, I totally missed it.
So now, enjoying flavored rice, and a coke, along with a very cool anime, I find my self thinking over a few things. It has been offically a week since my roommate moved out, leaving me and the cat to ourselves. The house has been queit, not that a roomate that was nicknamed 'Ghost' made much noise anyway. But since then, the house has remained cleaned.

I decided that a reflection is in order, just to relax my spirit a bit. It has been almost 2 years since I left my parents house. 2 fast years of living life on my own. In those two years, I have seen, felt, experianced more then I ever felt possible. Every time I think I have been through it all, suddenly another thing comes crashing through the roof. Life is strange and fickle, like a person who has no idea what they want. It will seem to play out one way, just to suddenly change its mind and send it in a TOTAL different direction. It figures that it drives a lot of people into a dangerous hatred, if not a total dispostion. It would seem appropriate to compare it to the sea currents, or the weather here in Florida. One moment its calm and peaceful then the next thing you know, your thrown in a malestrome of insane water and wind.

But something happens as the winds dies down and the water stops flowing. You find yourself growing a little more each time it passes, and the sun comes out from behind the clouds. You feel a little bit stronger inside, if not wiser. You begin to find that the task that was placed before you was another stepping stone on the road to becoming a more realistic person, if not very shrewed and accountable. You never understand why it happens, but as you navigate your ship, you find yourself becomeing more aware of the times of rain and sun. And like most things, you can build yourself up and prepare for the unavoidable.

Reflection is always a wonderful time, becuase then you can look and see the scares of experiance upon your soul. You can sit down, and place your hands upon them, sighing with the joys it brang, or relish in the pain that had passed because of it. Its never bad to look at an old wound, but can become probmatic if you reopen it. Dwelling on a destructive moment too long can often lead to more serious injury then repairs.

And as I stare with reverence over my scarred body, I bow my head and am thankful for everyone, even if they still aren't healed. Because with each on comes a lesson. Each one a phase leading me from boy to man.

~Des

PS: Funny... I finish this blog, and even though the sun is out, rain seems to be falling. Its almost in a sense a dramatic finish

I have been making edits for a long time and well I posted some of them up on my photos for any of you who want to see them...

If you like what you see and want to make a request, no matter what it is, just email me or add my hotmail:  Evil_Chibi911@hotmail.com

Also remember to put in details and which program you want me to use:  MS Paint or Paint.Net

I will work on them as soon as I can and get them to those who requested.

Hope to see alot of requests soon :D

It's been quite awhile since I last was active on here, so today I going back and trying to update and get back to being active on all the sites I'm a member.

 It's been a year, and my lease at my apartment building is up so I'm moving to a new place soon (thank god!) the last place sucked! Not only was it overpriced, but the management was so crooked, they even towed my car because I told them I wasn't renewing my lease...hard to believe I know, but if you lived there you would understand how petty they are.

 I'm still work my two jobs, not the greatest in the world but in this recession and down economy ya gotta' do what ya gotta do to pay the bills. But hopefully yhis new place I'm going to I'll actually save money and now have it all go to bills >_<'

 I plan on attending Megacon 2010 this coming March, I missed out on AWA this year due to my moving and bills etc. But by March I should have enough money to afford the Double Tree again T_T

(so expensive! but the most delicious breakfast buffet ever!!!)

 Still single, theres been develops here and there but overall nothing that stuck. So hey I'm still a free man.

 Most recently I went to see "Inglourious Basterds" Mr.Tarantino doesn't dissappoint! I loved it.

 Well I guess that's about it for now, ciao!

 TSM

P.S.

Picture not related.

Hey everyone! Holy crap, it's been a while since I was last on here!

Well, I'm going to be coming on alot more since the School year is almost over for me ^^ (Insert W00t here)

And I just got back from Jacon, omg it was awesome! there were a few road bumps saturday night (If you were there, you know what I'm talking about.)

Other than that though, It was awesome, I cosplayed as Shippuden Naruto for most of the weekend. But I also cosplayed as Ginji from thr Get Backers. Well. Until the pants got destroyed. lolz

Well, I'm gonna end it here for now.

Ja Ne~! <3

Hello Everyone!

I found an interesting read. Introducing the top 10 overdone cosplays! Im sure you know most of them. 

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Its been a pretty boring and work filled week. The weekend is my only real rest time. And doing two sites a day is killer.. At leats they're beeing done in five hours or less. Last time i was down here, it took seven or more hours. I'm getting much better at this, as i'm finshing my part of the work faster than my dad. yay! Other than that, the sites have been rather close so it's not too much trouble.. But all that work has been leaving me exhausted.. And i'm not looking unforward to this uncoming week which is going to involve sites that are father away which means long hours in the car with my dad.. and his awful podcasts.. They suck.

Turnpikin'.... driving around the lonely night with the best of friends, sitting in the back just as tired as you, but remaining awake just to look at the stars.

Turnpikin'.... listening to the same CD spin for hours at a time, the lyrics burning into your cerebrum, but you don't care, out in the lonely night, all that matters is the moment.

Turnpikin'.... no one on the road but the four in your hand-me-down sedan that smells of some spray left in it from 10 years ago... the smell brings waves of memory to your brain, creating a tide of emotions so strong, you can't hold them back.

Turnpikin'.... The future is only as far as your headlights reach, the past, left in your exhaust. The window rolls down, and the clear night air invigorates your senses. The chill from the wind stands your neck hairs at attention and brings gooseflesh to your skin...

Turnpikin'.... No expectations. No rules. No worries. Only the car, your friends, you and the wild, unknown, and lonely night.

~Oz~

I dont even know where i should start. How I should start, to explain the emotional and physical stress I have been under lately. One of my Best Friends is moving away and has yet to tell me... Then how do i know you are questioning? A bulletin...on myspace... He leaves on Nov 12 2008 and has yet tot tell me to my face. How do you FORGET to say something like that to your closest friend? You dont...

Lex's Mom went for Surgery yesterday i will be going later today to see her to see how she is doing now. She had an accident a few months ago, almost a year. They put a plate in her neck and it needed to be replaced.

About 2 weeks ago i was kicked out of school because of absences... I had no ride and my father was sick in the hospital. It blows because i have been getting better grades then people who were there for all the classes. But i had to leave because i was on a grant that required a certain amount of hours to graduate and i wouldnt have met them. What sucks even more? 2 days after i was booted from school i got a car great timing huh?*sigh*

Found out friday a good friend of mine who is only 26 had a heart attack, we were close once almost dated but he changed. Didnt realize until his heart attack that he was a jerk. we have made peace and continue to talk. He went to have a defibulator put in and is been put on a wait list for a Heart transplant. if something isnt done soon they say he may not survive the month let alone the year.

Only good news i have to report is that my boyfriend will be here on November 13th. I cant wait, maybe, if only for a few days, i will have some happiness for myself with out something ruining it. Yea right. I am estatic for his visit i havent seen him in ages, even though it will only be for a few days it will definatly help my mental state.

Physically i am drained, losing more and more sleep, when i do sleep its only 10 to 30 min at a time then i am up for a few hours. i work 6 days a week i am lucky to not get called in on my day off. i knwo i know i am bitching but no one wants to listen and yes...this is a big change from my normal blogs but if i type it down maybe i can get some sleep tonight. I help and help and help everyone with their problems yet it feels when i need a shoulder to lean on i fall on my face. Sometimes i can speak with my boyfriend and makes it all better, other times it just makes me forget about it until we hang up. I dont complain ever but sometimes, like tonight it becomes unbearable and i just wrote a blog and it goes away. its like venting without ever having to tell anyone. I know no one reads these things which makes it great. I never use names though Just in case. I dunno, sometimes i feel like i am trapped in a bubble screaming and no one hears me. Its like being in a crowded room and feeling alone. i know its cliche but its the truth. you know i even wonder sometimes if my cat is the only one who cares, then i think he only cares because he wants food. and yet he still knows how to melt my heart, even as i sit here typing he rests his head in my lap so content with life. i know he loves me because if he didnt he would only come to me when he wanted food. I think i feel much better now my rambling has ended. Time for breakfast and a huge blanket to wrap up and keep warm, Until next time...

Check them out Aizutto. They're stunning. >w<

They're more recent pictures of me, and some from EXPcon.

Halloween

...was awesome. I went with my friend as a geisha. We were both geishas and got uber amounts of comments on our costumes :] We got tons of candy, because in my book, you're never too old to trick-or-treat :D

Anime Con

....I know this is pretty late. I got a card at EXPCON about Ai-Zutto, but I just now registered. So...yeah. Anyways, I had a great time at EXPCON. We got to get a picture with Jonny Bosch, which was quite awesome.

Hi Everyone!

Just thought i would post a blog on whats new ! I hope everyone is doing great. Its been about 6 months since Aizutto has been live, and new things are still coming! I hope you all have met some new loves, some cool friends or some comrades to complete your 20 man bleach cosplay!! I know i have! All of you are Kings (and Queens!) among men, i still really cant thank you all enough for the support and love we have gotten through the tough times. Staying in the internet game is an uphill battle, as me and AlphaOmega are serioulsy doing all we physically can to make aizutto a relevant and dedicated place among the bazillion of sites on the internet. But enough about the struggle.. lets talk about the fun! A few people on the site have found love here..might have to start making eharmony commercial spoofs ; ) . So to that i say whoo hoo!!!! So basically what im trying to say is if you have been holding back because your too nervous to contact that fine sexy girl who makes you blush, or your too shy to ask that ichigo looking guy whether hes single or not JUST DO IT!!!!

Comeon people! we put the work dating in the title to help you out! we are rooting for you!!

Fall in love... yah bastards!

http://www.enotalone.com/article/2282.html

AlphaZ

Okay so i'm bored

Like really.

It's kinda like, "Whoa."

XD

Yeah, i really don't have a life..

-sigh-

So my cell phone is coming to an end soon.

Which is really no big deal since NO ONE EVER CALLS ME!

But that means i get new plan.

Yay Sprint!

I'm gonna get an Umlimited Text and Data plan.

That way i will always be in touch with everyone.

Not that there is really anyone who wants to talk to me..

But i like to pretend there is someone who does so let me keep believing that..

Until then, someone should call me while i still have a phone.. 0_o

Please, you know you want to..

"Trying to forget someone you loved is like trying to forget someone you never knew."

"True love cannot be found where it does not truly exist; nor can it be hidden where it truly does."

Among the many things that fuels a man is ambition. The will to move, to act, to desire, to struggle, and to fight are somethings that fuels a strong passion for what you are doing. Without it, the activity lacks meaning, and you find out that you're disenchanted with it.

Welcome to the life of a novelest! 

As a writer, I often struggle with every form of disappointment. Whether it is an ordeal with how I had wrote it, someone was displeased with my postion, or I just find that time slips ideally away as I stare blankly at the blinking curser on my newest sentence, there is always a feeling of the 'Why do I care about this again?' blues. I often feel like I'm standing knee deep in wasted sludge.

No one said writing was going to be easy, not that it ever will be. Anyone who says thats is a liar and need to be chained to a desk for the rest of their lives and be forced to write enough novels to make the library of Congress look like a little boys collection. Taking an image and giving it life is probably the hardest thing possible, mainly because humanity will NEVER see the world as the other person does. Good example: Ask two artists to draw a picture of a character or a place you described and see the what you get. I'm telling you, its intresting to see the results and interpretation of each one.

I'm finding that doing this project is making me more angry then helping. A lot of things make me wonder if pressing forward is a decent idea, for the sake of those around me. Grouchy, grumbling, and nearly killing anyone who might ask about 'How many words now?" it might be best that I set this work aside until I can fully work out my thoughts, give the structure of the plot a better basis, and for the love of everything holy, keep my temper from lack of sleep undercontrol. 

I think sleep is wonderful... Maybe I dream better if I give myself some time... 

~Des 

As i get ready to move another time,

I cant help but feel the memories that have gone by in just one year

Doing this every year has taken its toll

But i cant help but feel that we must move on to hold on to what we have left

sounds cliche i bet, but think again... 

you cant stay in one place forever...

The world is so big to just stay in one place forever!!

I'm one more year older,

and wiser......

and the times are changing,

definitely....

Can i conform just one more time?

I hope my new place has a back yard,

that would be nice....

So now we will rely on our laughter...

(I was sad, but I felt that I should share this because I know I'm not the only one.)

A hard world can get frustating. I can say first hand, hardships and terrible pains are always looking for the next victum to scoop up in their jaws and carry away into the ever growing darkness. If that isn't enough, you have to go to work, be at school, make sure to pay your bills, do laundry, feed your pets, study for your tests, clean the house, cook dinner, and make it to bed before a 12 or your'll be the living dead the next day. And then there are the break-ups, the sick days, and the bad hair days (espically not fond of those)...

A harsh place indeed.

Often times, it just seems easier to give up and throw it all the way. Mainly because your body doesn't feel it can endure anymore suffering. It screams to quit and often kills your heart because its too much pressure.

However, there is always hope.

This is what keeps us going. Dreams and truths, along with ideas and motions, friends and Family, God (for some of us) and even (yes) rivals keep us kicking long enought to put up a great fight against all odds. Its the ever present and fire that fuels us. The idea of a peaceful exsistence along with the strength to face all odds. Love, passion, and desire will keep the cog wheels in your soul from drowning. The problem lays in the fact that in your weakest I agree more then the next guy, trying to envision a drop of water in the desert is easier said then done but don't give up hope because you might miss the oasis on the other side of the next dune. Grip on to your loves, and dreams you hold until you are dead! Cause only when you are at peace with your passions can you find your rest.

Now safe beneath their wisdom and their feet,
Here I will teach you truly how to sleep
-Ye Child of Dust, Thrice

~Des

when you cant find peace in you own home? A father coming home drunk day in and day out, smoking in your bed room when he knows you want to be a singer, therefore killing your lungs without a care in the world. How does he expect me to give him love wheb he does this? What do you do when your father doesnt supprt your decisions or your career, when he just doesnt care? I pray, I beg the Lord..and I wait....but I dont know what to do.....Im afriad to leave him the way he is....but what about my sanity? Cant I live a calm and peaceful life too?

prayer....pray is all I can do...its also supposed to be the strongest and best way to do something....Will by prayers ever be answered?I dont know... 

Yay for 24+ hours of no sleep, and it's going to rake up to 48 by tommorow morning. Damn you 3D animation and modeling finals for being a bitch... D:

I just wanna be at work animating in Flash for once... =3=

"there are two reasons why I dated you. The first is I wanted to know what it was like to be in a relationship and at that point I had never been in one before. And the second is because I felt bad for you because you loved me so much"

why would you feel bad for someone loving you with all their heart. i cant stop crying it just hurts no matter how hard i try i cannot seem to move on. and i told him i wish i was skinnier and prettier then maybe he would have loved me back and he never denied the fact. it makes me wonder if i am really supposed to be happy or not you know. I just have no one to go to. he is the person i usually complain to about stupid shit like this but....i cant this time. and my roomate/best friend cant help me because she has her own issues. no one is EVER around when i need them it sucks because i am always there for them. whatever i apologize for you reading this its retarded. and i am sorry you wasted your time.
Mood: miserable
Music: Something Corporate "This Broken Heart"